to love you = is to be part of u !! procrastination and caffeine do not go along = kids be aware :) psyched and loving it ! calamity and serenity is never seen in my life = KNOW ME ;)

I'm like watching TV right now ! i want to sleep, blog, sleep some more and watch TV even more ! i just saw the criminal show - 'cold case' .. and the female lead in the show .. who .. by the way .. i have gotta say that she is a goddamn good actor !! In this episode, she meets someone that is already dead but feels a certain connection towards him. Just this something that one person gets that when you meet someone that's special or you either had met that someone! it would be so wonderful if i just could or even find someone that i can relate to at all .. in the opposite gender that is ! how can a person find a person like that in this conscipted world og ours !! it just totally sucks right now!! i mean everyone of my friends or even anyone else has got a partner .. not even me .. even my sister has got one .. i guess i'm just a pathetic love-at-first-sight kinda gal .. anyways .. back to the show .. the female lead finds this guy and she just has this connection .. that i must say that i'm totally in awe with !! and finally, the truth comes out and he's alive and when they do meet .. there is this sense of recognition between both of them.. like there are sparks or some sort .. i would like to meet someone like that .. u know ..love-at-first-sight! i can't say that i'm really a good looking person but i do know that i have a good heart !! i don't even know if i would find someone and right now, though i'm 17 and i have my life ahead of me .. i always think if i would ever get that kind of feeling .. i have been brought up in a way that my career and money is sort of more important .. and that is so embedded in my head that i couldn't bring myself to have any relationship .. i never gave into peer pressure but this year, i lied that i was in a relationship .. when i wasnt even close to one though there was this wonderful guy that was there right infront of me = for atleast 2 yrs .. is it too soon or should i wait and put back whatever i think should be felt right now at this age .. like all the other teens out there -no offence- .. i really don't know what to think .. DAMN .. what should i do ??
soon
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