i was so lazy to update.
actually i don't really have much to update.
that is why i lead a sad life.
i wanna change my blog layout.
but i like the plain layout. bahhhh

i'm fixated on threadless.
i love this pic
the shirt would cost 25bucks.
kinda expensive for a tee.
bahhhh. SAVE MONEY.

maybe 3 bucks per day from today.
which wld mean in about 9 days, i should have enough money to get it. YES.
25 bucks.
anybody willing to donate?

i'm becoming unfortunate.
have a radio report that i have to complete.
having a social psychology quiz this week.
have to get my notes into place.
my world into place.

things i have done over the past week:
1. wanted to go for halloween party. butter factory.
2. got boxers that were freaking adorable! but 19 bucks and damn thick sweater
3. went to tekka and bought more tops that are freaking adorable too.
4. aimed aimlessly to save money for more shoes/sneakers and tees/pants
5. got a new bike and am hooked to biking
6. broke so much like hell
7. been feasting on chocolates-everything to do with chocolate
8. beginning to think that HINDI is the sexiest language alive
9. dinesh is wanting to hit on my bestie
10. mitran talked to me though i lied

i don't really have much at all
kick ass bitches.

i'm beginning to wonder why gals out there who are good-looking bother so much about guys not looking at/talking to them
i mean come on?

i did it staffy. UPDATED. but super boring! ;)

tuesday.
school finished early.
went for radio in the morning-felix tan
radio was kinda awesome.
wore that damn denim skirt that i havent worn in ages!
its a wonder that i can still fit into it.
i love my bag! yes! dorothy perkins.
though i spent a little too much then needed!
but who cares! awwww makes me tingle on the inside
went to RP later
with dawn eunice and cheryl



we took an mrt all the way there
but didnt know how to walk there
then we took a cab-3 bucks
hehe
lazy. everyone looked so nice today.



everyone expected RP students to be.. different
i guess we made an early assumption. wrong one
RP is damn huge


the whole place smelled like a cross between a hospital and something
i cant seem to put my finger on it
but the place is like damn clean and huge. then we ate the A/C(ed) canteen
also damn huge
plus RP has to be one of the quietest poly ever.
within me i thank god that i'm in NP! yay.



then came the emo bitch part
fought with my bestie
had to support my sister
and the whole boyfriend and relationship thing is just bull man!
being single is a hell lot more easier i swear!
but the whole being alone part sucks for a hell lot more reason.
fighting and being in-between and trying to do what's right seems wrong at all the right times!



emo bitch depression mode started kicking in
and doing its dirty job


fuck. forgetting it. i'm weird
brothers on a hotel bed!
then we went to causeway point
first time there
we went to gelare'


i have never been there before
gotta bring nesha there soon
i miss that bitch so much
sometimes i feel like i'm betraying her
why? am i really? i'm changing.



i'm going back to the whole emo dark side again
death cab for cutie.

i binged on food like hell today!
ate gelare's sundae which was really filling.
then came back home and ate instant pizza
my family really does survive on instant food.
bad family. bad.

i wanna go out again so badly.

feel like my life really has no meaning to it.
besides the regular schedule and school.
how does one make life interesting?
my bod aches
getting my new bike tomorrow.
taking it for a spin

emo-bitch taking off.

u either know something
or u don't.

love is big
romance serves a purpose
it puts logic to sleep so that people can come together
otherwise probably people won't risk it
why is love so complicated?
couldn't that one thing be easy?
love is big
its a bright light in the universe
and a bright light casts a big shadow
real love is hard work
u have to decide if you want it in your story
or would u rather stay in the drain?

-joan of arcadia-

people pretty much think that they know everything
everyone's pretty much a fucktard
he can't do nothing.
try it.
he don't even know what he's dealing with.
do what u want
go die u idiot
fucktard

pretty much i was blur for the whole week of school
still feel blur.
my life is such a bitchy bore.
so boring
i LURVE the lecturers and lessons this semester.
but i'm bored.
feel like my whole mood just turned a whole 180 degrees.

free-writing in writ-com. quite amusing
i think i wrote crap:
future
writing about future. i'm on tofu. i guess life is pretty much a bore. nothing much to do except work and live my life out.
which is rather amusing when u think about the future being interesting and a tad bit more shitty but everything just falls into place like my mum would pretty much say to me all the time. the whole theory about life and future being exotic interesting and nice is bull. how can life be more interesting if there are no emo things that you can be able to do. sadness is required. karma's a bitch. what goes around comes around. i pretty much consider myself lucky at this point of time. with everything that's going well for me but when i think about wads gonna be happening in the future. it bites me in the ass. KARMA. i think i am pretty much gonna have a simple and misery free life. but sooner or later. its all turning upside down. believing in luck as much as i do can be rather mushy and happening all at the same time.
but when u think about karma faith and destiny it bites u in the ass.
i think i like the word ass abit too much.
i wanna be a freelance journalist. travel all around the world.
at least i know i have that destiny written in the palms of my hand saying that it will happen.
being an indian brings u to a whole other side of life. how u view things -being ethnically- different is interesting but yet horribly terrible. in other words bitchy ass crap.
to continue. i wanna do all those things.
get an apartment by 25. go somewhere else besides singapore. ooo NEW YORK. and probably get killed sooner then expecetd. get a black cat with white paws. have accumulated enough money to go shopping as and when i want. be a journalist and kick people's tush.
move away from my family and finally try to catch up the whole indian tradition when i get married.which i most probably might not.
the expenses and the kids. a horrid life from my parents' point of view.
not saying that they dun love us or anything. but it already hurts as much looking after ur own parents and having no life what so ever. and on top of that u have a spouse and kids who might probably make u bankrupt. my parents brought me up well. but once i get settled down. that's when everything else falls into place.
WHAT I WANT IS A SECURED INDEPENDENT FUTURE.

doesn't make much of any sense
sharp's cool.
at least i think that's how u spell his name.
white dude.
speech-comm is super conflicting and confusing!
cordelia is awesome
felix rocks
issues is a pain in the butt.
work at hand.
i think i'm becoming a retard and quite bit emo-ish
or at least i can feel it rising
exceptionally lazy.
super.

went to salvation army with elke and dawn on tues/\.
was too bummed to blog yesterday.
then we got so damn hungry.
before that we had radio tutorial.
FELIX TAN. he's awesome!!
he's so good at cracking people up. SO GOOD!
i'm like actually looking forward to tues!!
we then went to BLOOIE's after salvation army.


i ordered the creamy sausage pasta.
it was a bit bland
but damn filling though.



elke and dawn ordered the chicken baked rice!
that looked awesome.
but way more filling.
no one managed to finish the meal.



but i must say that the ICED LEMON TEA
was awesome!!!!
was so good.
but i know. its just iced lemon tea.
but it was so different and refreshing!



the ambience of the place.
was quite nice and cosy.
nice place to chill.
its actually meant for sport buffs!
3 big plasma TVs dedicated to sports channels!
wow.



wouldn't mind going back to the place again.
the meals were 9.90 each.
cost me 1 buck extra for the iced lemon tea.
but WAY worth it!
and elke ordered the brownie ice-cream with choco fudge on it.
damn mouth-watering.
the fact being that the brownie was still warm
with the ice-cream on top
that came up to 7.50
total came up to 45 bucks.
which was okay. reasonable!
;)
i liked that day.
the day was awesome.
then later went to vivo
with dawn
walked around.
walked the food off.
DIGESTION's a killer!

me want more of FELIX TAN!
he actually rocks as a lecturer!

first day of school
the usual things.
but feel like an unhealthy dead zombie.
so unhealthy.
i'm scared.

v-star tomorrow.
after some confusion.
seems like u have to well-dressed.
pathetic people.

i want an espirit top.
loan me cash.

i am so super screwed.
school's starting on monday.
speech communication is the 1st lecture.

-Ms. Cordelia Fernandez Lee
-Notes:
Fanatical about proper pronunciation.
Easy going ... but only up to a point :)
Funny.
Rude.
(i'm totally gunning at jumping over a building)

the assesment worksheets and notes are already online.
first tutorial..
figure would be public speaking = all about me.
not that appealing. its beginning to make me a tad bit more nervous.
school makes me nervous sometimes.
how old am i. 17. not suppose to be nervous.
i know these people.
the lecturer interviewed me. hopefully she won't remember.
i was horrible.
i thought i was good at public speaking. now not so much.
i feel. NERVOUS.
i'm allowed to be nervous. i can be nervous.
have to think about touch rugby.
another thing to be nervous about.
must go to school abit earlier then usual.
must try to be there by 8.45am.
OH-MY-GOD.
my puke is almost at the top.
feels like my choco muffin is about to come out.


why am i nervous?
THIS WOMAN HAS GOTTA BE KIDDING ME.
her tongue twisters and pronounciation exercises!
are atrocious.
WOW.capital wow.

why don't my shoes fit?

-running out of things to write-

why don't you wanna shake ur booty?
i need to make a doodie.

i swear blogger's being a bitch.
took me 15 mins to upload 2 rotten pictures.
of myself.

i went to get my haircut at Toni n Guy Academy today.
sat there for 2hrs 15mins
right now i'm doubting whether the haircut was worth it.
i had to take a cab to tiong bharu. coz i thought i was late.
5 bucks. 2pm appt. bugis.
me and punctuality is drifting.
school's next week.

my hair is already curly.
they had to make it even more curl-ier?!
come on. but i spent 8 bucks on the haircut.
now i have no idea how to style my hair.
i had someone from bombay cut my hair.
she's a student. learning at Toni n Guy.
therefore the academy.
she's chinese. but she's living in Bombay.
since young.
forgot her name. ;(
the whole idea for my haircut was to be dis-connected and stuff.
kinda cool.
but it brought me back to the audrey hepburn years.
seriously.
its longer at top and shorter at the back.
that i like.
but i kinda wished they would have cut my top part shorter.
my life would be easier.
now i have to syle it and stuff.
dang.

i wanna bitch.

sunday:
met up with crappy person-dinesh.
went to see a movie at vivo.
was half priced. not exactly.
5 bucks per ticket. quite cheap.
went to see nanny diaries.

the movie only started at 12.45pm.
we ended up meeting at 11am.
we ended up going to starbucks and started tokking crap.
mostly about the class.
where's micheal?
but that idiot had to leave the movie half way.
had to go be a tutor to a P6. dang.
serves him right.;)
too bad he missed a damn awesome movie.
my goal to live in NEW YORK is still strong. so strong.

then went to the mediacorp place thing.
vasantham star.
filled with indians.
i was getting heart pangs.
nearly flushed.
omg.

the theatre was damn big.
the cameras were huge.
we were seated at the back. coz we weren't supporting nobody.


the fact that there were so many indians there.
nearly made me feel in-secure.
in NP-i don't get to see as much indians.
and surprisingly-there aren't many indians in mass communication either.
wow.
and you wonder why.


going to vasantham star this sunday again.
yogi-b's performing.
yay man. plus point.
right before school re-opens on mon.
damn fast.
wow.

i went to the batu caves on sat.
fell sick for the next 2 days.
RAIN SUCKS.
coughing non-stop.
therefore the lack of update.
batu caves was sorta fun
but damn drenched.

i did this stupid fortune telling thing.
THE MOUTH OF TRUTH
i just had to put my hand into the its damn mouth and it reads my palm.
rather amusing.

seems like i'm going to be okay.
life: 6/9
love: 3/9 terrible!
luck: 8/9 SWEET!
health:4/9 freak!
sex: 8/9 i think i'm a freak
wow. hard to believe. me?




the pictures are self-explanatory.
i'm too bumbed to type where the pics were taken.
too many.




most of them were taken in the taxi that we had to take.
the taxi was damn small!
I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL FOR THE TAXIS IN S'PORE.




some of them were taken when on the bus.
couldn't sleep in the bus rides.
back and forth from s'pore to m'ysia.
wow.
no wonder my butt looks like a flattened pan.






then came the most exhausting but exhilarating climb.
272 steps.
not easy. since its rather steep.
but quite a work-out.
go figure.





the monkeys were a pleasant sight.
rather amusing to watch them grab food n stuff from people.
jumping around.
quite fulfilling.




the coming down part was the worse.
walking down the 272 steps in heavy downpour
was a death note to me.
i nearly slipped.
damn slippers. DMK.
i will never forgive my mum for that.






but i must say that the toilets in m'ysia
are horrendous!
damn. why can't they keep it clean?!
i had to control my pee the whole day.
so not a pleasant thing!
had to go to the s'pore immigration to pee!







but was kind of fun
i guess it could be worth it.
the monkeys made it worth it.






it seemed like there was indian actor at batu caves
doing a shooting.
Ajith i think.
who cares.
so much for being an indian.








end.
made it to s'pore safely.