u figure people are not as confusing as u think they are.
but they are more confusing then ever.
then u figure that doctors are nice people who do actually care for the freaking human life,
everything just fucking changes!
i went to the doctors, twice!
yesterday and today

yesterday:
went to the doctors after calling like a dozen clinics!
finally when i went to one, she said that she can't do it, not-experienced.
okay, that was fine. the fact was that she was really nice and she really felt for me.
she referred me to another doctor(MALE) that worked in the same clinic but at different shifts.
she was bothered about me-that counts a hell lot

today:
went to the same clinic again.
my stomach was like actually churning. inside out.
but when i got in! that dang doctor(MALE) was such a pain.
he was asking questions like why did i pierce my ear? did i do it with permission?
how does freaking matter? i mean seriously!
i got it pierced and now its affected! so there! that's it man
plus he started taking my blood pressure and heart rate and crap.
he was scaring me.. like what the fucking hell
she didn't do it. why does he have to do it?!
ARGHHHHH. he just let me go. he said that he can't cut the lump off because its more complicated.
he sent me off and gave medicine and stuff to wash and put a sort of cream on my lump!
34 bucks! and i have to come back in 5 days

how long am i suppose to wait?
in like 2 weeks, my school is going to re-open!
plus i got to get my haircut. what if i wash my hair and the shampoo gets into the wound or something?!
i had toe infection previously(like a long time back), i couldn't manage such a small thing in school!
how am i suppose to manage it if i go to school with my ear not healed yet! DANG MY ITCHY HAND!
the whole deal was that i get the damn thing of my ear like this week and let it heal(JUST IN TIME)
now i have to wait for 5 DAYS! and then if it dosen't go down, i have to get it cut off.. fugging hell!
if the lump doesn't go down. i have to go to hospital! DANG! tell me earlier
plus if i get referred to by the private clinic-there's no subsidy but if i go to a polyclinic-there's subsidy
like bahhhhhhh
i'm like fucking frustrated!
coz my mum couldn't bring me to clinic nor my dad
the fact is:I HATE DOCTORS/HOSPITAL
i have to go with someone(company)
WHINE!
i wanted to go out so bad
i actually had plans for next week.
now i don't know
what am i suppose to do.
i pushed all my outings this week to next week!
FUCKED!

i actually saw one of my primary school friends.
he was actually the cute guy in class
actually still is and i studied with him when i was in P4.
i was like he could actually remember me.
i couldn't even realise that it was HIM
i had to look twice before i realised it!
AWWWWW.. he smiled.
saw him today. further more, i sort of decided to wear my NP shirt after so long when i left my house to see the doc
and i thought that i was actually lucky to see him, coz i haven't seen him like forever! i actually thought the shirt brought me luck!
then came the doctor's hell.
dang!
i can't remember his name! isman? ismail.
bahhhh
torturous...


i feel like having a swedish dish
restaurants please?!
people!
i mean it. STOP CONFUSING ME!
get to the deal!