pretty much i was blur for the whole week of school
still feel blur.
my life is such a bitchy bore.
so boring
i LURVE the lecturers and lessons this semester.
but i'm bored.
feel like my whole mood just turned a whole 180 degrees.

free-writing in writ-com. quite amusing
i think i wrote crap:
future
writing about future. i'm on tofu. i guess life is pretty much a bore. nothing much to do except work and live my life out.
which is rather amusing when u think about the future being interesting and a tad bit more shitty but everything just falls into place like my mum would pretty much say to me all the time. the whole theory about life and future being exotic interesting and nice is bull. how can life be more interesting if there are no emo things that you can be able to do. sadness is required. karma's a bitch. what goes around comes around. i pretty much consider myself lucky at this point of time. with everything that's going well for me but when i think about wads gonna be happening in the future. it bites me in the ass. KARMA. i think i am pretty much gonna have a simple and misery free life. but sooner or later. its all turning upside down. believing in luck as much as i do can be rather mushy and happening all at the same time.
but when u think about karma faith and destiny it bites u in the ass.
i think i like the word ass abit too much.
i wanna be a freelance journalist. travel all around the world.
at least i know i have that destiny written in the palms of my hand saying that it will happen.
being an indian brings u to a whole other side of life. how u view things -being ethnically- different is interesting but yet horribly terrible. in other words bitchy ass crap.
to continue. i wanna do all those things.
get an apartment by 25. go somewhere else besides singapore. ooo NEW YORK. and probably get killed sooner then expecetd. get a black cat with white paws. have accumulated enough money to go shopping as and when i want. be a journalist and kick people's tush.
move away from my family and finally try to catch up the whole indian tradition when i get married.which i most probably might not.
the expenses and the kids. a horrid life from my parents' point of view.
not saying that they dun love us or anything. but it already hurts as much looking after ur own parents and having no life what so ever. and on top of that u have a spouse and kids who might probably make u bankrupt. my parents brought me up well. but once i get settled down. that's when everything else falls into place.
WHAT I WANT IS A SECURED INDEPENDENT FUTURE.

doesn't make much of any sense
sharp's cool.
at least i think that's how u spell his name.
white dude.
speech-comm is super conflicting and confusing!
cordelia is awesome
felix rocks
issues is a pain in the butt.
work at hand.
i think i'm becoming a retard and quite bit emo-ish
or at least i can feel it rising
exceptionally lazy.
super.